Saturday, December 15, 2012

Monday, December 3, 2012

Forget Your Past

(Excerpt from 'Victory Words for Front-Line Battles' by Kenneth Hagin Jr.)

Forget Your Past / Forget Failure, Success

All your experiences in getting to this particular place are behind you. All the great things God did to get you here are behind you. They are of no value to you now, except that they can stand as an inspiration to help you go on.

The Apostle Paul said, "Forgetting the things that are behind." Did you ever stop to think what that man had to forget?

I believe (what) Paul meant (was) - (forget) both the successes and the failures. He wanted you to forget the failures because the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ has covered them; they don't exist anymore.

The only place they exist is in your mind - in those memory banks in your mind - and the devil will keep bringing them up and up again to bring you under condemnation if you don't renew that mind with the Word of God, and allow the Word to wash them out.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

(skip to 0:55)

Where do I begin?
Where do I belong when you’re not here?
This is way beyond my darkest fear
I don’t know where I end or where I start
Each mile in between is way too far
Where do I begin?

I love you and I’ll say it again...

Monday, September 24, 2012

One Year of Love

Kunwari, love letter. Hihi ^^,

It's funny how I see you in a different light 
and still feel the same way and even more
with each passing day. 

When I'm with you, I can be me
I can tell you my dreams, fears and random thoughts without being judged.
And even through the silence, I feel your love and care embracing me.

We've been through a lot
and yet every time you hold my hand feels like the first (time);
I still feel butterflies when we're together.

Hon, thank you for always being there.
I love you for who you are and nothing can ever change that.
You're the choice I'm glad I made,
and I promise to be with you every step of the way.
I'll never give up on us.

Happy Anniversary!

PS. I didn't make the video, but I wish I did. ;)

Sunday, July 8, 2012


I wonder how it feels like
to be in a place where
no one knows me ~

But on second thought,
perhaps I've been there
all along...

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

You Only Live Once

Two weeks ago, I was asked by my boss if I could write an article for our account's monthly newsletter. It's been quite a while since I've written something "print-worthy" so it took me quite some time to find my momentum in organizing my thoughts. Good thing he liked it, although it was quite "bitin" daw.

- but I'm pretty sure I got my point across. That's what matters to me, because I always have trouble ending my articles. Haha! Here it goes:


You Only Live Once

    It's that time of the year again where students finally receive their diplomas after years of "brain-melting" academic endeavor. If you're one of them, give yourself a pat on the back for a job well done! Now, the big question that comes next after graduation is, "What to do next?"

    I remember the time when I graduated two years ago and took my board exams on the same year. After obtaining my R.N. license, I was stuck with no job whatsoever. That's when I applied quite reluctantly-yet-optimistically in CVG. The only goal I had in mind was to land a decent job while I wait for job opportunities in the hospital. So, I told myself never to make any friends and to not go beyond 8 months to a year in the job. Sounds neurotic, right? But to say the least, I've never been happier breaking my own promise!

    You see, sometimes between decisions that need to be made and a future that lies vaguely ahead – there are many opportunities that you may choose to grab along the way. As I patiently wait in God's time for a chance to practice my profession, I'm blessed to serve our religious community, spend more time with my family, get in touch with my old friends and have fun at work with my awesome teammates - the Grey Warlocks! It's in priceless moments like these where happiness reside. When the right time and right opportunity comes along, I bet I'll move forward without any regrets when I look back.

    So... What will you do next? Just do what comes naturally, be open to possibilities and do things with a happy heart! You never know what surprises life has in store for you.

Remember: You only live once - might as well rock it! :)


Pardon for the hiatus, but it's been a pretty busy month for me. Although I've quit my second job two months ago, I'm still quite perplexed as to why my schedule hasn't gone any lighter.


Me and hon celebrated our 7th monthsary last Thursday. Yup. It still makes me say, "Parang kelan lang..." *nostalgia*

Despite our busy schedule, we were still able to have a late dinner at Chili's Greenbelt. The food was just awesome! And I love their Fajitas Trio. Well, it just looks a like a lot on photo because of the way the fajitas ingredients (is that how you call it?) were plated.

I just love Thursdates, food dates and every kind of date with hon. And I love you! HAPPY! :)

Monday, March 19, 2012

On Looking Back

"Wala ka talagang aasahan sa hinaharap 
kung lingon ka ng lingon 
sa kahapon."

I feel really dismayed at people who keep on "reminiscing" about anything from their past - especially the painful ones. I'm reminded of what Fr. Joel said on his talk during the SFC Metro Manila Leader's Assembly last Saturday, and it goes something like this:
'Pag ang biro ay unang beses nating narinig natatawa tayo, pero pag inulit ay parang wala na lang. Ang mga bagay naman na nakakasakit sa atin, paborito nating ulit-ulitin kahit hindi na maganda. Bakit kaya di na lang natin ulit-ulitin ang biro, at least nakakatuwa pa.'

I am very much annoyed.

Hindi na nakakatuwa ang aking mga nababasa, dahil sobra na.
Paubos na ang aking pasensya.
Ni hindi man lang maalala ang isang mahalagang petsa.
Binibiro ba ako ng tadhana?
Natatawa ka ba?

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

If You Only Knew

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

[Adele - Make You Feel My Love]

Monday, March 12, 2012


Someday this will fall apart 
and you will forget the awful things 
that have happened.
They will melt like snowflakes 
against the radiant warmth of all the love 
you shared in your brief life.


Monday, February 6, 2012

TP's Eyeball: 'Timelessly Relevant'

I just love how theater performances move me and make me contemplate on things, even just the simple play on words! This weekend was no exception as Tanghalang Pilipino brought back 4 original Filipino plays from Virgin Labfest into two sets of twin bills in "Eyeball: New Visions in Philippine Theater" to cap their 25th season. I was extremely grateful to be invited to this event by Hogi since it's my first time to watch plays of this genre.

Included in this year's offering were Layeta Bucoy's "Doc Resurreccion: Gagamutin ang Bayan" and Carlo Pacolor Garcia's "Bakit Wala Nang Nagtatagpo sa Philcoa Oberpass" for Set A. The other twin bill (Set B) has Reuel Molina Aguila's "Maliw" and Nick Pichay's "Isang Araw sa Karnabal". 

These shows were great insight to what is happening in our society, either stated in the past or present tense. Though every day life may seem mundane, the playwrights effectively gave their audience a glimpse of what the characters felt, experienced, thought of, struggled with and hoped for.

I didn't just go to watch an "independent"/original play, but instead got whisked away in a place far from my comfort zone. In that light, one that got me was Bucoy's Doc Resurreccion - a story of a successful young doctor (played by Riki Benedicto) who aspires to run for mayor in his hometown. Knowing "politics" in our country, you probably have an idea of what happened.

But what really got me was, believe it or not, Aguila's "Maliw". A story based on forced disappearances of people who rebelled against the government (some may remember them as being called "desaparecidos") and how a couple tried to deal with the loss of their daughter who was an activist. To some, Aguila's masterpiece may appear as lackluster but it goes deep as it delved on the play's title.

maliw [adv]: not stopping, never ending, persistent

In our personal struggles, we always associate this word more popularly (if I may say so) through the concept of love, a perfect example being "Ang Pag-ibig na Walang Maliw" (A Never-Ending Love). Just like in the play, we are always in search of and/or waiting for something - perhaps a person that would complete us, a thing that we've lost, a place where we want to be at, a memory that we like to reminisce, a moment in time that we would like to freeze and so on. We would always, without fail, try to hold on to things incessantly and even try to associate it with what we have at the present moment.

But again, as I've witnessed in 'Maliw', we have to eventually let go of it. No matter how precious, sweet or good of a distraction it is - it's not good to dwell on dreams and wishful thinkings. One may even forget to live a perfectly happy life. Like what my old folks usually tell me, "Nasa huli ang pagsisisi" (Regret always comes last).

Instead, let's "infuse" our lives with heaps of positivity. "Kasiyahang Walang Maliw" (Never-ending Happiness) sounds more realistic, don't you think?

Catch Eyeball's last weekend at CCP this coming February 11 and 12!
Grab your tickets by calling 832-3661, 0920-9535381, 0928-5518645; CCP Box Office at 8323704; or Ticketworld at 8919999.

Remaining show sets are as follows:

  • February 11 - 3PM (Set A - Doc Resurreccion and Oberpass) / 8PM (Set B - Maliw and Isang Araw sa Karnabal)
  • February 12 - 3PM (Set B - Maliw and Isang Araw sa Karnabal)

Monday, January 23, 2012

To A Decade of "Golden" Friendship

... well, almost 1 decade just a few months from now.

We became friends in a very curious way. But nevertheless, you've showed me what true friendship's about. How to fight for, cry with and go through life with a friend. I remember the "diary" we had and all the insane things we did and said back when we were younger. Oh, yeah those days. :) But not only was I blessed with a friend, I was blessed with a sister who keeps me grounded.

And on your birthday (fine, hindi ko sasabihin age mo, haha!), I just want you to know that:

I pray that you'll achieve the desires of your heart. It may not be easy getting there, but I know you can. You've always been the stronger one. Always know that I'm here for you. Cheers to our nearly 1 decade of friendship! 

PS. Ang umaway sa'yo, patay sa akin. You know that ;)



Friday, January 20, 2012

Happy Fourth

"Happy Monthsary, hon! Ay, anniversary na pala... tagal na nating 'di nagkita eh!" ~Fjordz

Every single "hirit" that comes from him becomes the funniest lines for me. Maybe I'm just "mababaw". Or maybe that's love or something. Haha! :)

Anyway, last night was yet another lovely night for me and my love. We attended the red carpet premiere of Underworld: Awakening in 3D at SM North Edsa - The Block. After which, we had a late dinner at Gerry's Grill Sky Garden.


I think it's more appropriate to say that "Time flies when you're in love". Despite the days that we had to wait for this day to be "our day" together, it was worth it. With so much stuff that we both wanted to share with each other, I literally stuttered most of the time - nabulol, nautal, na-wrong grammar, whatever.

Oo, in-love kami. Obviously. :)

And with that, thank you so much hon! Basta alam mo na 'yun. I cherish every moment that I spend with you, every laughter, every secret... everything. And I love you, always! :)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Where Will My Feet Take Me This 2012?

I'm back... Hello 2012!

For the past few days, I've been thinking of an appropriate post for the New Year but obviously I couldn't think of any. My mind just seems to be bursting with so much ideas and plans of what I want to do for this year - my career, travels, getting in touch with friends and so on...

Even at this very moment, I can't clearly sum it all up. They're pretty much jumbled in my head so far. So, my apologies if at times I might not make sense or if my rambling seems a little... random.

Anyway, I think here are some of the things I'd like to take a chance on for this year:

  1. Career change - I like my jobs, no offense. But unfortunately, I've grown tired of them and I feel that I'm being left behind already. I have to get a head start on the "right" career path because if I don't, I'd certainly regret it.
  2. Learn a new language - This was actually one of my plans for 2010 but since I did so many trainings related to my (actual, but non-practicing) profession, this one took a temporary backseat. I think I'd fancy learning either Spanish or French. Hopefully, I'd be able to do it (finally) this time around.
  3. Travel - I plan to go to at least three different places before the year ends. Domestic travels would do. :)
  4. Hobbies - Not many people know that I used to do theater and simple graphic art - ages ago. But years have gone by and I don't even know if I still know how to do it, though I'd like to pursue them at some point. From time to time, opportunities come knocking on my door but for some reason I didn't give it much attention. Maybe there's a right time for me to kind of go back to it and see where it leads. If it's all for His glory, then why not?
But aside from that, I'd like to give more time on my relationship with God through service with my new-found SFC family, my own family, my God's gift, and friends. I think I'm slowly finding solid ground with how my life has been for the past year after finishing college. I mean, I'm no longer wrapped up in this naive perspective of the world. I may have had big dreams, and mind you I still do, but I know that as long as I have these wonderful people in my life I'd be able to get by. It may not be as grand as I had planned in mind, but as Proverbs 16:9 said,

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps."

I know that the Lord's plans are greater than mine and that He's waiting for the right season to unveil greater things. I gotta learn to be patient. :)

I hope everything goes well this year. Fingers crossed!